Memories Refused to be Memories

Start of a week.... bad start... waited for a bloody cab for 40 mins... while waiting, i saw buses 969 & 858. Somehow or rather, i thought of her. I felt pain in my heart, I missed her! I realised i have yet to remove her from me... i should have known tat... if not why would i be keeping her pic in my wallet still? Ha! Kidding myself.... Every conversation with her now is like so distant... we were once so close and now we are like strangers... the tot of tat shudders me... i felt cold n alone.

Went to caesers alone at 5 while waiting for head. Drinking alone yet again.... sigh... i juz dun wish to be home... alone but i'm out alone also wat! ha! irony.... Jimmy n gang came ard at 8. Had dinner then straight to KTV at shenton way... while singing songs those bloody memories came back again... all the songs i sang for her.... sigh... but as i sing.... i looked at jimmy i can see tat he is sad as well... i saw tears forming in his eyes.... yeah... no kidding... i can see how hard he was trying to hold back his tears... then i realised.... maybe i should take part in Project Superstar 3. Maybe Xu Huan Liang will say.... Keith... ni gan dong dao wo.... haha!!!

Talking to Jimmy over the net... think he is my online msn kaki cum confidant. haha... talking to him abt RF too... whahaha how she rejected my advances... sigh... scully if tat time she accept me... we are happily in love now n tat gal wun be in my wallet anymore also... (on ya! she finally put her profile in friendster "in a R/S" sigh....) haha but then again... i not taking RF as a replacement or rebound huh! Anyway... when 2 person chat... itz bad to have 1 tat is upset cos the other will have to console but itz worse to have 2 tat is upset... diaoz...


You loved ur frenz & family.
Then she came into ur life.
She took a portion of love from ur frenz n family.
She left.
That portion of love taken, she took it with her.
Vacant lot, and u never feel complete.
Someone else came along.
She filled the void.
And u start feeling love again.

I guess tat how people get over a failed r/s. I'm trying to see if it works.

2 Days to go :(

Another 2 more days and that's it. Can i pull off a miracle? Confidence and morale super duper low now. Coupled with certain headaches i'm facing now, i really feel like giving up. Yet i know if i were to give up, things will turn out worse. I can't give up! I gotta bite the bullet and fight on! Body is willing but spirit aint.

Things had remain stagnant like previous post. I went for appts but yet nothing was secured. Perhaps i didn't work hard enough, did i? I am not sure... if i had worked hard, why arent the submissions reflecting like wise? Maybe it's time to pack up and go, maybe....

God pls show me some favour. Bless me...

Trying to be busy

Been a while. No inspiration to blog, no motivation to blog, nothing to blog abt.
March is the month to make it big. 1 week to closing but the distance to goal doesn't seem to be shortening. Long shot it is, so be it. Lem me do it and keep some mouths shut.

Frenz has been advising me to make a career switch. I can't and i dun wan to. I got to prove them wrong, more importantly, prove myself right in choosing this beautiful career. Can i make it or can i fail? I dunno. I juz got to do my part.

I think she is enjoying her new r/s. "Blessed" she proclaims to the world. Trying to show me tat she found a better man? Maybe she did... Devil enter my thoughts. Bad bad bad... I dun wish to hear she coming to me crying and saying tat the guy went back. hehe... damn bad...

Try to be busy, try to work hard! Endure for a week more! and all will be over in a blink of eye......